Wednesday, June 1, 2011

...nothing a bubble bath can't fix

Please excuse my absence...

I've been experiencing something that one might like to call a, "20 Something Crisis."

You know, I have a book on this topic called Twenty-Something, Twenty-Everything.  Now would be a great time to give it a read.  It talks about the mid-life crisis and how it has nothing on the amount of anxiety and overwhelm that 20-somethings experience.

Let's go back to last week - I believe I mentioned that "unemployed gals like moi can lay by the pool reading InStyle all day."  Well, I'm excited to announce that this little gal will no longer be available to partake in such events on Monday through Friday. 

I was offered a job.
sigh of relief

You can still refer to me as "Megan," "Meg," or "Meggy."  Or, you can call me, "Alumni/Development Coordinator of the Medical University of South Carolina Children's Hospital."

The choice is yours, but I do prefer that last one, please.

...ok, so back to this crisis.

I never knew I would experience this feeling.  It's definitely not anything too important, but yes, it has taken a toll on my mood lately.  Likewise, it has had something to do with my blogging lately -or lack thereof.  

I moved out of my condo on Memorial Day.  Not exactly the way I would've liked to spend the national holiday, but I was thankful my mom and Brandon were off work to help me.  

I loved my two bedroom place, but my roommate moved to another state, my landlords were terrible, and frankly, as I'm in this college girl-working girl transition, it's nothing I could dream of affording by myself. 

I dumped my things into storage and took my absolute necessities to a friend's place for a temporary solution until I can find either, A. another roommate, B. a one bedroom place, or C. heck, I don't know.  

The feeling of leaving my condo (aka my sanctuary, my humble abode, -whatever you want to call it, it was MINE) was awful.  It was as if I didn't have a place to call my own at this time.  Well, I don't, come to think of it.  This "limbo-land" is not sitting well with me.  It has only been a day since I've been out of my condo, and the feeling I have without it is just not complete!

I don't like the feeling of uncertainty. 

Not only that, but I have this weird "real-world" anxiety.  It sounds crazy for me to say that because I've been in a hurry to graduate and step into the work world as soon as possible.  I've always been in a hurry to grow up.  Now, I'm starting to feel as though I've been wishing life away.

It has now hit me that I'm no longer dependent on my parents.  Well, of course I will always be dependent on them in certain ways (and I'm so thankful for their support -they aren't just throwing me out into the world like a fish with no water), but for the first time in my life, I am not dependent on them to eat, drink, sleep, etc.  I've gained my independence, which is awesome, but wooh! -it happened so fast.

Honestly, I can't tell you why I'm typing all of this, or why I'm feeling this -because this is what I've wanted for years and years.  

I'm having trouble realizing what it is that I want out of life ...and it's making me overwhelmed and frustrated.  

In the blink of an eye, I'm a college graduate, technically homeless for a couple weeks, and responsible for making my own money.  Once again, all wonderful things (ehh- except for the homeless part), but it leaves a lot of unanswered questions about "what's next?"

I am taking into account how lucky I am to have a problem as simple as this, but boy- it's an uneasy feeling.  I'm so blessed to have a job and supportive friends/family.  It's just a transition, and I'm obviously not too great with change.

So here is my rant about my Twenty-Something Crisis.

If you've read till the end, then bless your heart.


ps.  it really is amazing how easily a bubble bath can solve life's little problems.


  1. Hang in there! It is hard to go from college to the "real" world so much is expected of you as you are finally considered a true grown up now! Just focus on the positives and once the ball is in motion and you get going with your new job, all the pieces will fall into place!

  2. I agree, the 20-something crisis needs to be a legit term. I seriously went though the same thing, as I think happens to a lot of people after finishing college. I promise it will get better and in no time you will be into your new routine and moving on to bigger and better things! Hugs!

  3. 1. Jealous of your BIG GIRL J-O-N in your very favorite City (CHILD, this is what you wanted! So just mark that off your check-list) Eeeeeeeekkkkk! Now that that's acknowledged.

    2. We're both lucky to have parents who do not throw us out into the cold (although it's actually 10 a.m. right now and my computer at work reads 75 degrees bebe! So , er- hot!!) Check that off the list!! Mom keeps telling me to stay as LONG as I want hah! I love her!

    3. Trese. I think you need to pass along that book to me- I am still not landing annnything and as you know by now, patience - I ain't got.

    4. We need to figure out when payday is :) Because I plug that formula into my Lilly agenda in le purse :)

    Hang innnn there child, you're sitting prettttty!!

  4. Congrats on your new job! Everything will come together for you soon! Keep your chin up :) -e

  5. Oh gosh, been there. But it's okay, we ALL go through everything your feeling. And it's a good thing too, because going through something is the only way to come out the other side :)

  6. I just saw where I spelled "job" incorrectly...wonder if this has anything to do with why I cannot land a job interview. I need a bubble bath now!!!

  7. I so agree with you! The 20-something crisis is HORRIBLE! Have faith... you're going to do great things! You've got what sounds like an amazing job, and you'll find a place that you can call yours! :)

  8. Congrats on your job! Sounds like an amazing opportunity :) Everything else will work itself and you'll get back into your groove in no time... until then just sit back and go along for the ride. The Lord knows what He has planned for you... just trust and have faith in that and you're good to go ;) Have a great day!!

  9. Congratulations on the job!

    I hear you on the 20-something crisis. That's exactly how I feel right now and it's so not fun. Ugh.

  10. I am right there with you. I can completely relate. But congrats on the job!! I'm still bopping around from interview to interview!

  11. I felt the same way when I graduated and got a job. So many things in your life are changing at once. It is all good stuff but it is enough to make anyone feel this way! Heck I sometimes have a crisis thinking holy crap I am a parent now and responsible for someone other than me! What til that happens! For now relax and enjoy your few days of freedom and congrats on the job sounds amazing!!

  12. Congrats on the new job and welcome to the working world! Only 40 something more years before retirement! LOL

    Hang in there... what you're feeling is totally normal and once you find a place and get into your new job i'm sure you'll be feeling a lot better about things.

    Just hold on tight and enjoy the ride and let God handle the rest :)

  13. I have been taking so many bubble baths lately to deal with frustrations~it truly is the best medicine. I totally understand where you are coming from. I am about to enter a whole new chapter in my life, move far away from those I love, and it is an every day stuggle not to freak out. haha
    I know you will be fine though! It's all part of the process.

  14. That is such a great idea, I think I really need a bubble bath right about now!! I just found your blog and love it! I'm definitely your newest follower. Congratulations on the new job and I'm sure things will settle down and fall into place soon :)

  15. girl I know what you's crazy how fast time flies by..I just graduated and can't believe I'm in the "real world" now! I think it all just happens so fast that eventually we will all be married with kids and think back wow..just yesterday I was graduating college and taking a leap into the real world! Congrats on the new job girl! I'm sure everything will all work out in the end :)

  16. I'm in the same limbo-land between college and real world work - i have a job but not "the" job, i have a husband but we live in a house inherited when my grandparents passed away - it's not really "ours" and husband is still in nursing school so we're not both out working and in "adult" world - it's weird. you'll be fine thought, i'm sure of it.

    and p.s. - i've been reading your blog for awhile but haven't commented. but here I am now!

  17. How exciting about the job. Congrats! Just remember everything will work itself out...eventually!

  18. Agreed! It's crazy how one little roadblock can create all kinds of uncertainty about where we're headed. Sounds like it's all working out for the best, though. Congrats on the new job!

  19. You are a great writer girlfriend, love this post! I was in similar shoes 3 summers ago, my roommate was moving to another city, I found myself relying on my parents and moving into my new 2 bedroom townhome alone. The day I was moving I heard back from my dream job and landed it! And a week later a friend I had mentioned needing a roommate to, wanted to move in! Just try to laugh at the chaos and not knowing for now :)

  20. Yay for your job! That's something to really focus on..the fact you have a J-O-B! :)

    Trust me, I've been there...I was at Clemson for six years (stayed for grad school - wasn't ready to leave after four years) and I was comfortable with my routines there... then I all of a sudden had a real world job in....wait for it... Columbia!! Bleh! I didn't know a soul there and I was going through a break up at the time.

    It was rough, so I completely feel your pain...and as cheesy as this sounds, I wouldn't change a thing because it really started the path for where I am now...and I never would have guessed back then where I am look at it as a door open for a world of possibilities...

    If anything, just be so thankful you're in Charleston and not in Columbia - especially in this heat, lol. :)

  21. I'm only 21 and have had this breakdown recently as well! hahah I totally relate to what you're going through. But congrats on the job that's so exciting! Keep your head up - things will get better!

  22. This is my first time visiting your blog, and I think it's safe to say that I absolutely ADORE it. All of your beauty, exercise and fashion tips are so helpful. Also, I have a little history in pageants myself, so I was very interested to read about your experiences in the South Carolina USA system. :)

    Regarding this post, I completely sympathize with you. Until I finally settled on going to medical school, I felt so lost and depressed... The uncertainty that is such a major part of being in one's twenties is so difficult to deal with sometimes. Best of luck with everything! ;)

  23. I'm going through the same thing! And have been for 2 years, but haven't graduated yet haha... Everything is going to be alright, my sweet pea. And maybe just maybe you'll get that perfect roommate that you need. ;)

  24. It's crazy isn't it?! It's so exciting, and scary and stressful and fun and miserable and exhausting and fabulous! Just try to enjoy everything as much as you can....cuz those awful 30-somethings will be here before we know it. Yuck!

  25. Love your outfit! :) Tagged ya in my blog! :-)

  26. I can totally relate to the 20-something crisis! I graduated from college in Georgia, moved to Washington, DC a month later, and found a job (thank goodness), and it all just felt like it was happening so fast! I feel too young for all of it still!

  27. Girl. I can totally relate. I just graduate 4 1/2 weeks ago and I just can't believe it. Out of my 7 girlfriends, I'm the only one staying in our 'college-town' and I basically feel like I'm in a new city and know least no one that is on the same page as me. All of my friends, including boyfriend, are older and have their career and I'm just starting out! I'm hoping for an offer this week for a great job but I still can not believe that this is my life right now! Good luck with everything!

  28. awwww girl~ I understand how hard it is! I read that book and it is wonderful!! I just turn 28 and I still feel kind of lost~ my life has been ups and downs, but Im grateful to God for all the opportunities and experiences. Life is Beautiful!!!



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